Breaking Me In

Chapter 1.

He was in my history class, two rows in front of me and off to the side and I had a perfect view from where I was sitting. Damn, he had to be the most awesome dude I’ve ever seen. Neat Brown hair, not too long, perfect face, blue-green eyes and a look on his face that screamed ALPHA to me. It was so hard to pay attention as the prof droned on. I tried not to stare but it wasn’t easy. I was afraid of getting caught but kept risking it and he became like a drug to me.

I was a college freshman and still a virgin. I used to jerk off in bed with a buddy of mine in high school, but we never touched each other and I knew he was straight so I always put on an act that I was too. Besides, I didn’t find him attractive. So I don’t really count that.

But now I kept hoping and even praying that this Alpha guy would be an Alpha gay because I was drawn to him as if he were a strong magnet tuned to my soul and drawing me in, day after day, class after class. And he had a smug look on his face that hinted to me that he knew my secret and intended to make good use of me.

He noticed. One day I hung back after class hoping he would be gone by the time I left, but there he was, waiting for me, and damn was I nervous. With no hesitation at all, he threw his arm around my neck and spoke softly in my ear. “I’ll make you a deal. If you can go three classes without looking at me—I mean not even once---I’ll give you a reward and I’m pretty sure you’ll like it. But you have to prove to me that you have some self-control and stop looking like a horny faggot with your tongue hanging out. Learn to be fucking discreet.” And with that he dropped his arm and walked away and I must confess that I watched until he was gone and damn he was put together in all the right places.

Is that what I looked like to him? A horny faggot with its tongue hanging out? Probably, because I really felt that way. And at the same time, I found my small cock stiffening by the way he spoke to me and my neck can still feel his arm around it. Damn. He was so direct, so clear, so fucking dominant. No beating around the bush. He knew I was looking. He figured out what I was—faggot. No threats. No telling me to fuck off. No. He makes a deal. Wants me to prove I have some self-control—which I’m not really sure about. Orders me—damn, fucking ORDERS me to “learn to be fucking discreet.” And promises a reward if I measure up.

For the next three classes, I took off my glasses so he was nothing but a blur. It was easy to keep my eyes on my paper—important, even, because otherwise I couldn’t see to take notes. And so I lost myself on the page, doodled most of the time, and kept my face turned in the other direction. As soon as class was over I put my glasses back on and practically ran from the room so I wouldn’t get in trouble looking at him as he left class. One . . . two . . . three . . . I did it! What now?

What would my reward be, I wondered. I never could have imagined what would happen now. I decided to hang out and let everyone else leave, but didn’t put my glasses back on until the room was empty. There he was when I walked out the door. Arm around my neck again and he asked me, “You have another class today?” “No, Sir,” I answered. What the fuck! I called him “Sir”? Almost like that was the only possible thing I could call him. I hoped he didn’t notice.

“Let’s go to the gym and hit the showers,” he said, and started walking with me trapped under his arm, right out of the building and towards the athletic facility. “Hey, Bobby!” one of his friends called out to him so he let me go and went to talk to his buddy. What should I do now? I started walking as slowly as possible in the direction of the gym and when I passed a bench on the quad I decided to just sit down and wait for what would happen next, keeping my eyes lowered, staring at an empty cigarette pack lying on the ground in front of the bench, afraid to look around. Dizzy with desire twinged with fear. Did he hear me say Sir? I could hear Bobby and his unidentified friend laughing out loud and, being as paranoid as always, I assumed they were joking around about me. I had to wonder if Bobby was telling his friend about the faggot he was dragging to the gym showers so he could show off his naked body and watch the faggot drool. At the same time, I was anxiously anticipating the chance of seeing Bobby stark naked as we stripped off to take out showers. I also wondered if it would be noticed that we had entered the well-equipped facility and headed straight off to the locker room and showers without having done anything to work up a sweat. Nonetheless, I was already sweating in embarrassing places at the prospect of seeing not only Bobby’s dick but his entire body stripped of clothing.

Before long I sensed someone walking towards me and stop right in front of me. I looked up and was staring right into his crotch and could see a faint outline of something I desired more than anything else. He put his hand on my shoulder. “I hate it when people litter. Pick up that garbage and toss it away next time we get to a trash barrel.” As he said that, he dug his fingers into my shoulder and I knew he meant business. This time I said nothing, but bent down as soon as he let go of me and picked up the filthy cigarette pack off the ground, trying not to hold it too tightly. “Follow,” he said. I stood and followed and when we got to a trash barrel, he pointed at it. I threw the pack away. “Good boy,” he said, and wrapped his arm around me again until we got to the door of the gym.

As others left the facility their eyes were drawn to Bobby’s possessive gesture. A few nodded to Bobby in recognition and one gave him a snide smile as he looked me over. I had no idea what was going on or who knew what about whatever Bobby was doing with me, and my lack of information was making me more and more nervous. Bobby picked up on it. “Stop overthinking everything. Calm down. No one cares what you are or what you’re doing with me. Don’t take yourself so seriously; the only person interested in you is me,” he said, and his derisive attitude towards me was strangely titillating. I was having a hard time understanding why I wasn’t simply walking away from him since he seemed slightly contemptuous of me even though I hadn’t given him any reason lately. It was all too confusing for me and if it wasn’t for the fact that Bobby found us two adjacent lockers in an empty row and immediately began pulling off his shirt as he said to me, “Get naked. I want to see what you’ve got. Hurry! Get naked and go sit in the steam room. No towel. Walk naked.”

Damn. That commanding Alpha voice that allowed for no resistance. I’d never been spoken to this way before and couldn’t identify the feelings that were running through my body. I began removing my clothes, and as I bent over to pull down my boxers I realized that Bobby still had his pants on and was just sitting there watching me strip. I didn’t like feeling this way. Somehow it was okay for me to want to see him naked, but not okay for him to see me naked? Really?

With that thought in mind, I pulled down my boxers, stood up and stuffed them into my locker. I put my hands at my sides, thinking of statues of nudes I’ve seen, and realized that now I was one of them: a nude. He said in a quiet voice. “That’s good. Just stand there, keeping your hands at your side,” as he bent down to take off his shoes and socks. He put them in his locker and gave me a once-over. “Does that small dick get much bigger?” he asked me and in shame I mumbled, “just a little bit.”

“How big hard?” I don’t know what was more humiliating, the fact that he asked such a question that no one had ever asked before, or the fact that the answer I gave him, half mumbling, was “a little under four inches.”

“What?” he asked. “Say it louder. How big does that boy dick get?”

I know I turned bright red. “A little under four inches,” I blurted out, hoping no one else could hear me. “Boy dick,” he said, my kid brother is probably bigger than you and he’s only 9. But damn, look at thosee perky nipples just begging to be played with until they’re sore,” as he took off his pants and jockeys and stood there in the altogether. I still had my glasses on and treated myself to a good look at what must have been the most beautiful and desirable cock I had ever seen. Not even anything on the porn sites set off my desire to suck as much as the sight of his smooth perfectly formed dick with a well defined crown that I had to fight not to just fall on my knees and wrap my lips around.

Bobby watched me watch him. He could see how I lusted after him. “Patience, my man. You’ll get to taste it soon enough. Take off your glasses and put them in the locker,” he commanded, and I did as ordered. “Now look at me. Can you see my dick clearly enough without the glasses on?”

“Yes, I quietly whispered. “Part of your reward, kid. And while we’re here you can stare at it all you want. I don’t care who notices or what anyone has to say or think about it. I know you’re hot for my dick. Don’t hide that attraction and you’ll get what you’ve been dreaming about all semester.” With that, he ran his hand over his dick and pulled it out a bit more and I was beginning to drool at the sight. “To the steam room. Naked,” he ordered and so I left there and walked through the locker room stark naked for the first time in my entire life, hoping beyond hope that no one who knows me well, especially guys from high school, saw me on display at this, my tiny cock half hard although no one would ever suspect why that was. I never walked around naked before, not even in front of cabin mates in summer camp. I felt like all eyes were on me wondering why this guy was displaying himself. My imagination ran wild. I remember a scene I saw somewhere. It was a boys’ dorm. The priest was standing at one end of the room and ordered all of us to stand there naked. Many of us would be thrashed. He picked me out and said, “Your, first. Go and bring me the cane.” I had to walk down through all the other boys and get the dreaded cane and then walk all the way over to the priest and hand it to him and he ordered me to bend over and hold my ankles. Wow! All this was on my mind as I walked to the steam room.

No one was there when I got in. I’d never been in a steam room before and wasn’t used to the heat or the fact that I almost immediately started dripping. Shortly after, the door opened and in walked Bobby, wrapped in a towel, and I felt cheated, especially since I had no choice but to sit there naked. “What’s happening tonight?” he asked me, as if it were perfectly normal to be sitting there like this. “Work,” I replied. I didn’t want to let him know what kind of work I’d be doing since it was pretty menial and I really didn’t want to give him any more ammunition to use to consider me as an inferior being. The 82-year old man I go to cook dinner for and do some light cleaning up paid me quite well. Two visits to him a week was all I needed to cover my ordinary expenses.

“What dorm are you in?” was the next question. “I commute,” I answered, not offering the information that I was alone at home most of the time since my father travelled quite a bit for business. (My mother had died of leukemia three years before this.) “What about the weekend?”

“Nothing special,” I answered. “Just homework. My Dad’s away and won’t be home until Monday so my weekend’s pretty free.”

“Ever get lonely?”

“Not really. I’m used to being alone. Prefer it most of the time.”

“Why’s that?”

“Dunno. It’s just the way I am.”

“How’d you like to spend the weekend with me at my place. I’d pick you up on Friday after classes and get you back by Sunday night. It will be good for you, and I can teach you how to suck my cock. How’s that sound?”

It was a dream come true. And the thought that I’d be sucking his cock while he coached me was getting me hard, right there in the steam room. “I can do that,” I mumbled.

“Good. Pack for two days. Include sweats and street clothes. I’ll get you back here Sunday night. Got it?”

“Okay,” I said, pushing aside the impulse to answer “Yes, Sir.”

“You’ll become a good cocksucker by Sunday night,” he said just as the door opened and two other guys came in with towels around them.

“Never did it before,” was my quick reply which, of course, embarrassed the shit out of me.

“I hope you’re a quick learner,” he said and stood up to leave. “Come. Showers,” he ordered and I looked at the two guys who had come in to see if they made anything of it. They were talking to each other and didn’t pay any attention to what Bobby was saying. Thank God.

There was no one else in the showers. I got under a shower a few feet away from Bobby. “Can you see my dick?” he asked. I shook my head no. “Then come closer. Check me out. This is your reward, faggot.”

I moved right next to him and turned to face him. The water was flowing over his head and down his body and his dick glistened in the water. He soaped himself up and then stroked his dick with soap and it grew, not all the way, but enough to present me with a very tantalizing sight. “It’s so hot, you checking me out like a hungry faggot, almost drooling over the sigh of me pulling my cock, making it get bigger. That’s right, faggot. Stare at it. Get hungry for it. Learn to dream about it,” he said and quickly moved away because the other two guys from the steam room showed up. I turned my back to him and started thinking of naked old ladies because my dick had already gotten hard.

He finished showering and started to leave the room. He stopped briefly within earshot and said, “Turn the water cold.” I did so and quickly wanted to get out from under the freezing water. “Stay and count to ten. Then come outside,” he ordered. Shit. I did what he said and then quickly left the shower area, already shivering, only to realize that I didn’t have a towel.

“Wait,” he said as he dried himself completely. “Quickly, kneel.,” he whispered. “Drop your soap then kneel down to retrieve it. I want to see what you look like when you’re kneeling naked before me. Stay down there until someone else comes in to see you, then grab the soap and stand up.” I did what he said and dammit, my cock started getting hard again. I couldn’t believe what was happening. There I was, stark naked and shivering from the cold water, kneeling in front of this guy who looked like a god to me. He was bad. Bad and targeting me and trying to take charge, and it’s turning me on like I’ve never been turned on before. He was a god, but he was a dark god, not a god of light. Where would this bring me?

He took his damp towel and tossed it over my head as he left the area and headed to the lockers. I dried myself as best I could, realizing that the dampness from this towel was from the water that had covered his body. I was both turned on and humiliated at the same time. I wrapped the towel around me trying to hide my small hardon and went to the lockers. He was already dressed and sat down to put on his socks and shoes, watching me. When he saw my hard few inches he chuckled with a derisive look on his face. “I’m going to have a good time with you. I’ll fetch you in front of Orson Hall at 5 on Friday. Black limo. Get in when it pulls up. Don’t be late.” And with that, he left me there, still shivering a bit, trying to put my clothes on with shaky hands and wondering if I should just forget about the whole thing. I fought in my mind. Yes or no?

I knew right then and there that I would never have the guts to stand him up. I’d waited long enough to suck my first cock. I bristled a bit at the way he ordered me around but, fuck it all, he was so awesome and his Alpha energy was doing things to my insides that I’d never experienced before. I knew then that if I chickened out I would always regret it. Besides, for the first time in my life I realized that there was something surprisingly comforting about being submissive and obedient. Bobby had already given me plenty of opportunity to discover this about myself.

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