I began experimenting with boys in high school. My first kiss and sexual encounter was with a guy in band I had a huge crush on, we’ll call B. One thing led to another with some flirting over instant messaging, and I was at his house, bent over, with him taking me.

I never really acknowledged my sexuality in college or later, though slept with guys on and off. Met a woman and married her.

But my desire for men has only grown stronger, and I’ve realized I am in fact 1000% gay and there’s nothing better than giving my self completely to a man.

I’ve chatted with B online off and on over the years. I have a chance to make a trip to my hometown where he still lives in a few weeks.

There’s nothing more I’d love than to reconnect with him, feel that cock inside me that ignited this so many years ago. I still get butterflies when I think about him.

Should I post more about our first encounter or the other experiences that helped me realized/solidify my understanding that I’m gay, and belong pinned under the strong arms of a man?