Disclaimer: I’ve tried to make my grammar as perfect as possible, but my mind is currently all over the place. Therefore, apologies for any grammatical errors.

A little disclosure/information about myself:

I’ve been versatile ever since I knew I liked boys back in high school. Before 2020 (Pre-COVID), I would engage in casual relationships like nobody’s business, and I would either take the top or bottom role all those times. I had no problem getting aroused whenever or wherever.

Present day:

Ever since I felt comfortable hooking up with strangers again post-COVID era (early 2022) period, I seem to be unable to get aroused whenever I take the top role. During the last couple of one-night stands, I would lose an erection whenever it was time for me to engage in intercourse. Like magic, it would shrink like a turtle’s head. I’ve legitimately sprinted out of my friend with benefits’ apartment the last 3-4 times when we hooked up from awkwardness and embarrassment.

Here’s what confuses me:

I can be rock-hard during oral sex, foreplay (such as sounding, edging, etc.), handjobs, or even just from a little touch. But the loss of erection only happens when I need to engage in penetrative intercourse.

Has anyone experienced this? Do I need to go to the doctor? What’s wrong with me? Can somebody please help me? 😭😭😭