My real first time story

This story takes place a few years back, I just turned 18. I considered myself straight, i didn’t have too many girls when i was younger due to bad social anxiety but I like girls. I watched straight porn but later started watching gay too. I wanted to be the bottom, something about another guy fucking my ass sounded so hot. I never wanted to get anyone in trouble so i waited until after I turned 18 to get grindr. As soon as I get on Im bombarded with messages, but i end up finding this 30 some daddy type with a nice dick about 6 inches who can host. I take a shower, clean out, get ready and go over to his house and im very nervous, he notices immediately. He tells me its okay and I can leave if im out or we can sit down on couch and go slow. I take the sit down option. He seems nice and he already saw me if i was worried about looking gay. We chat for a bit about life and sex. I started to get comfy with him and was like “let me suck your dick”. He smiled. We were sitting on separate couches. I get up and lay with my stomach down next to him and pull his sweatpants down. I remember the sensation i felt in my legs and butt as I spread them out on the couch with my head in his lap. He had such a good looking dick and balls. When I started to suck it. It felt hot sucking a penis for the first time like “i actually got a dudes cock in my mouth”. It’s my straight mind but it felt good breaking that mindset. I had it to ask if i was doing good and hearing his moans was also so hot. After a bit i ask him if we should go in his room. We get up and I follow him to the room and start getting undressed. He really wanted to kiss and loved touching my nipples. It felt good being with an older guy. I felt secure in his house and presence. I love how he was into me. I lay on my back on the footend of the bed with my legs spread open as he grabs the lube from his dresser drawer. He wasnt wearing a condom. I said he didnt need one. I wasnt really thinking risks. He lubes up his dick and starts to put in me and i let out a loud moan. That first insert was tough for some reason and i tell him to take it out for a second. He puts it back in and fucks me missionary. Later he say he wants to do doggy and i flip around and move up. I grabbed and hugged a pillow. He enjoyed doggy as i could hear him grunting and grabbing my waist. I try to dirty talk him a bit. We were alone we could be loud. He tells me hes going to cum and lets out a big moan and pretty much passed out for a second inside me. I didnt cum though. I felt a bit weird and needed to process what happened. I got up and said bye pretty quickly. I went home and see my mom. She didnt know what happened. I got in my room, locked the door and jerked off twice with no porn just thinking of what happened and my freshly fucked ass.

I didnt expect to see him again but we connected again on grindr. I went over less nervous and had an even better time with him. I told him how i didnt cum last time so put me back in missionary at the end and watched me cum before he finished in me. Then the drive home with cum leaking out your ass is an interesting feeling.