I will take this to my grave. I 21M am a closeted bi curious guy. I have always been a bit of a porn addict and it was only when turning 18 did I start a true addiction to all kinds of porn. I started watching trans porn, gay porn, hentai. Any kink out there I got really turned onto. I probably masturbate twice a day and never without some kind of porn. This may be average until o found reddit. FYI, this is a new account, I have had reddit for 2 years now.

I started off in discord roleplay servers occasionally writing scenarios with women of discord. I then got a few request from guys whilst I started on my trans/gay watch. I enjoyed playing the bottom so much I only play as a sub in roleplay. I especially love playing the femboy.

I was quite slim a couple years ago and started to turn myself into a femboy. I shaved, I tried on some of my friends clothes. That lead me to buy a skirt and thigh highs for me. This is all in deep secret. I would also shave and finally bought my first dildo.

I loved showing off and took many photos of myself sharing it to strangers. I sent videos of me with the dildos, my shave legs, different positions all whilst hiding my face. I loved it up until the point I have now gained some weight. I still live with my parents and started a job so I had less time where people weren’t at home so I stopped this and let myself go.

Just before had gained some weight, discord had got me to roleplay through reddit. Through which, I learnt of a few servers that would let you find others that would want sex. I put a few posts up showing my body and what not but never perused anything fully.

I spoke to this one guy who was at uni just a few roads away from me. I liked the way he looked and how nice he was. He showed his face 1st and was the only gay guy willing to use a condom because I’m deadly scared of STIs.

We eventually did arrange 1 day and my anxiety raised through the roof . He was like a 40 minute walk so he talked about getting an Uber. I freshly shave, put on all the skirts and stuff and even freshened up my bedroom. He asked for my address and this made me panic so much. He got to my road just before I gave my house numbered and I totally ghosted him.

I took the clothes off, never said anything to him again and went back to just watching the porn and masturbating. If I ever lose the weight, I’d probably feel comfortable enough to try again and really want to.

That’s my story and I hope you enjoyed the read!