I never had a clue I was even slightly bisexual until high school, when I had a drunken encounter with a buddy at a Halloween party where we swapped oral. I struggled with it a long time, and living in rural Oklahoma didn’t make it any easier.

Anyway, there is a friend of my dad who we’ll call Ben. Ben is in his early 50s and drop dead gorgeous. Stunning blue eyes, square jaw, and insanely buff for his age. He would often come over and help me and my dad out around our ranch. I never really paid much attention to him until I returned home for the summer from college. Oklahoma summers are hot af so we would often work shirtless. And man, I could not stop staring at his chiseled abs. They were perfect🤤

One day, he caught me staring and I quickly looked away and blushed. Then it happened the next day, and the next day and the next day. I was so ashamed. I shouldn’t be feeling this way about my dad’s friend!

Then, after a long day of work, he invited me back to his house for some beers and to watch a football game. I accepted. During the drive over, out of the blue he asked “Are you gay?” I froze. My face turned beet red. He looked over and repeated his question. “I- I- I don’t know” I choked out. “It’s ok man, I’m gay” he responded. looked over at him stunned. “YOU ARE?!?!?” “Dude, why do you think I never married?” Suddenly, it made sense. Why he never married. Why he never joined in conversation about women. Then, I spurted out “IM BI”. I froze again. Why did I just say that? He chuckled. “I thought you might be. I know you’ve had girlfriends annnnnddddd I caught you staring at me”. “…..is that ok?, I responded. “Nah, man. I don’t care. I know how good looking I am”, he joked.

After that, I calmed down. We got to his house. We chatted about our sexualities. I told him about the drunken same-sex encounter I had. Then we threw on some football and drank some beers.

“Hey, you wanna join me for a shower?” Ben asked. What? Did he really just ask me to join him for a shower? Oh no I know where this is going. But do I want it? I looked at him, his square jaw, and sparkling eyes. Yes, I want it. Fuck I want it so bad. “Yes”, I responded. As I followed him into his bathroom, my heart was racing. Am I really doing this? Yes, yes I am and I want it so bad.

He turned on the shower and took his shirt off. I stared at his chiseled abs. Then he took off his jeans and my eyes stared at his bulge. I could tell he was getting erect. My God. He chuckled and slipped off his underwear. My eyes widened. His dick was 8”. I watched it slowly get harder and harder. “Hey, you gonna join me?” I never took off my clothes any faster in my life, then we both hopped in the shower. He took his bar of soap and started scrubbing me. My chest, my back, then his hand started creeping down to my ass. He scrubbed my ass, then reached around and touched my dick. I jumped. “Oh I’m sorry, I can stop if you want?”, he said. “NO!” He chuckled again. “Yes sir” He wrapped his hands around my dick and started stroking. I moaned. God, it felt so good. Then he turned me around and kissed me. Our tongues danced. My heart fluttered. And he never let go of my dick. I reached forward and wrapped my hands around his dick and started stroking. We moaned in ecstasy.

“Hey, you wanna fuck?” Ben asked. “Yes”. He smiled. We got out of the shower, dried off, and headed to his bedroom. We started making out on his bed. “I want to suck your dick”, I said. “Go for it”, Ben said. He got up, and sat on the edge of the bed. I kneeled down in front of him and stared at his erect 8” dick. My heart fluttered again. Am I really going to do this? He gently put his hand on the back of my head and I opened my mouth and took him in. In that moment, it felt so natural. Like I was meant to be this way. Yeah, I’m doing the gayest thing possible, so what? I bobbed my head up and down up and down. He moaned in pleasure. “Oh, you’re so good at this”. I sucked him faster and faster and he grabbed my head and took me off. “Hold on cowboy, I don’t wanna cum yet” he said grinning. “Uh-huh” I said, licking his tip. “You wanna fuck?” Ben asked.

Instead of answering, I got on the bed and bent over. My ass on full display. I felt him get behind me and plunge his tongue in my ass. I flinched. I had never heard of rimming before. It felt so taboo but so good at the same time. I moaned as his tongue darted in and out of my hole. Then he slipped a finger in. I clenched my teeth. I was in heaven. After fingering me a while, he stopped and I felt cold lube on my ass. I knew what was coming. “Are you ready?”, Ben asked. I nodded.

I felt his dick on my ass and slowly push in. I gasped. It hurt but it felt so good. I was meant for this. To be a bottom. He let me get used to him and then started fucking me slow with deep strokes. He wanted me to enjoy every thrust. I grabbed the sheets and braced myself for what was to come next. He started fucking me faster and faster, harder and harder. The pain was gone. It was all pure pleasure. I was moaning loud. Begging Ben to fuck me. I felt his thrusts get harder and more erratic. “I’M GONNA CUM” he yelled and with one last mighty thrust, I felt him cum deep inside me. That was it. The first time a man cummed in my ass.

But I had no time to rest. He pulled out, and flipped me over and started sucking me off like his life depended on it. God, it was so intense. I could do nothing but grab the sheets and throw my head back. I felt my orgasm building. “Ben, I’m gonna-“ but before I could finish I came deep in his mouth. I screamed. The orgasm was the most intense I’ve ever felt in my life up to that point. He kept sucking me off making me squirm in pleasure.

Finally, he came up, and plopped down on the bed with me. We were both breathing heavily. We turned, kissed, and cuddled and fell asleep.

Ben and I became regular fuck buddies after that night. We fucked almost every night and he introduced me to the wonderful world of gay sex. He started calling me his boy toy which I loved. He introduced me to p-orgasms, BDSMs, and took me to a bathhouse where I had my first group sex. Unfortunately, I moved out of our little Oklahoma town but Ben and I still keep in touch. And every time I visit, we make sure we fuck all night long.