[This was something that happened right after I got out of college at my first real job. Thought I'm sure no one I know will read this, I might be vague with some details and I'll let you know what those details are. Also I might get too detailed as I write about things that happened, if it's long I'm sorry, if it's not you're welcome?!]

Some Background

My first job was in lab for this medicine company. My major was chemistry and this was one of the first things that popped on on LinkedIn for the factory near where I live. It was a department that does quality assurance on the medicine being produced. It was pretty successful and I had a lot of really nice and hard working co workers.

So I don't really consider myself gay, especially at the time. I had a girlfriend who I knew since I was young and I loved her, and never really imagined being with a guy. Even though my guy friends joked about it, that's all it was. However, as mentioned in other confessions, I had been cheated on my another girl, and that really caused me a lot of mental problems. The way I coped with it was I guess positive? I started to like cuck porn to cope with her cheating on me. However that just lead me down a path to more and more weird porn that I would never imagine myself watching.

The "gay" tab was something I might've accidentally stumbled on, and if I was really horny, I might try it but it just wouldn't satisfy me at first. However, when I watched the cheating porn, I started to like seeing bigger and bigger dicks. Then the thought of me trying that dick too became intriguing. (Only big ones though, I noticed average ones like mine aren't that enticing.)

Where it Begins

So one of the coworkers at my job was a very openly gay man. I might've seen some gay people in my school, but I never interacted or talked to someone like him. Not that I was avoiding them but I kind of keep my friend group small, so I don't really meet that many people. So I'm about 5"10 on a good day, average size dick, like shy of 6. This guy was around 6"3 and around 30 years old. He was the tallest person in the department.

He had a pretty fiery personality. He gets into a lot of arguments with other coworkers, and some coworkers talk behind his back. A lot of gossip happens at workplaces, its very interesting. I didn't really take sides and I liked his personality. He only would get snappy if you were to trigger him, which I took care not to do with anyone, so I would spend time with him or work with him when I can with no issues. I was also sort of the baby of the coworkers, since I was a graduate, and most people are in their 30s and 40s.

I come from a religious background, with both my parents being very strict Christians. I don't know how they would interact with this gay man, but I had no problem with him. This was just a thought I had I figured I'd share since it's like so engrained in my life. I guess I liked him as a person more since my expectations would've been low because of my upbringing?

Also when I say openly gay, he never talked about his sexuality, but he had a sort of flamboyant voice, had a lgbtq flag as his wallpaper on his phone and computer, and would gossip with the girls about guys he hung out with.

As a straight guy, when I'm around girls, a natural thought I had was stuff like, "wow she's pretty" or "does she like me." Just thoughts I probably wouldn't have or think because I wasn't sexually attracted to men. But with the thought that this guy likes to fuck guys, I had this thought about him. I would think how he was a pretty good looking guy, he's tall, and he probably has a big dick, because of his height.

Eventually we got friendly and he asked about my life and if I had a girlfriend. I hadn't told my parents about this girl I was dating, so I wouldn't talk about her a lot and kept it a secret. So I naturally just said no I didn't have a girlfriend. I then asked about him. He said he was talking to some guy but it wasn't working out. Idk why but I was like "oh wow" and he jokingly said, "umm you didn't realize I was gay haha, just kidding." I kind of got flustered and said something like, "oh no I didn't mean it that way, I just never been with a guy so that's a new experience for me." He basically said how you never know something until you try it.

After like a few weeks of working with him, I would try to change the subject to talk about him and dating. He finally asked if I was straight and I worked up the courage just to say, oh I think I'm bisexual, but I'm not sure. He was being so respectful and caring by saying things like, "What aren't you sure about", "you can be open, I won't judge." I had never talked about my sort of horny feelings towards big dicks or being gay and it felt really exciting to admit to someone that I had these thoughts.

I told him how, I think I find some guys attractive, I might try to see if its real but not sure. He found it cute the way I talked about it, called me shy. We would at this point eat lunch at the cafeteria together, but he asked if I wanted to try something from outside, he knew a good spot. We'd get Starbucks or Panera, and sit in his car and eat and talk. I opened up more about my thoughts but I would sort of try to make it seem like I wasn't into it. The conversation would go like:

"There are some weird things on the internet"

"Like what"

"Heard of cucking, so crazy."

"Oh I had a buddy into that, he was bi so he would take part."

I'd learn so much from him and his experiences. I think he knew why I brought things up because I was into it, so he'd ask slyly things like, "so what do you think, can you imagine yourself doing that." I admitted that, I first thought it was crazy, but something seems interesting about it, even though it was strange to me, maybe it being strange is why I like it.

Not sure how it came up but I asked about his first gay experience and he said it was in college with his roommate, and I asked what it was like sucking and being fucked, and he was super open about it.

Things took a turn when he asked if I ever gotten close to doing that with a guy. I said my friends would joke about it but I never thought about it. He asked what if someone asked you to, or had their dick out, would I suck it. I started blushing super hard at this and I said, I might, I told you I'd like to try once with the right person. He said who is considered right. So I was getting butterflies and I said, I would hope it would be one that's on the bigger side, maybe shaved since I don't like hair. He said his was like that, he likes to wax down there and clean shave his balls. I was like wow, how do you clean shave, I usually just trim. He said it's not too bad there's a technique, it feels nice.

We just kept talking about his dick, if he's cut, which he wasn't and how he cleans under there. I then finally asked if I could see it. He kind of looked around, we were at the Panera parking lot, and he drove to this abandoned factory near our job. It was this company that went bankrupt so no one worked there. After he parked he pulled his pants down and he was like half hard but his dick was pretty big, I felt sort of embarrassed comparing it to mine. He started showing off his balls and it was clean shaved pretty good. I asked if I could feel it, so I started on his balls and he sort of jumped when I first touched. I slipped off my sneakers and readjusted myself on my knees on the passenger seat and I leaned over to play with his dick.

I said "wow I never done this, it feels pretty nice." I was hard feeling his dick and I really wanted it in my mouth. He had his hand on my back and he pulled me close so I just closed my eyes and I went for it and started sucking his dick. It tasted a bit weird at first, it was dry, so I started gathering saliva to get it wet. I felt like so dirty and hot doing this. My first thought was how my girlfriend would feel knowing what I was doing. I also had guilt of what my parents would think, but I stopped caring and I went crazy on his dick. I did things I wish my girlfriend would do. I played with his balls, I twisted the shift and licked and sucked the tip. He seems to be around 8 inches long. I have pretty big hands but my fingers just barely can touch each other, if I squeezed I could do it. I had 2 hands on his dick and there was still his whole tip sticking out which I could get my lips around.

I felt bad for my girlfriend that she was stuck with mine and she would miss out on a dick like this. I looked up at him and he was sort of smiling and breathing hard. He said, "tell me when to cum and I'll do it." I nodded that I wanted his cum so I noticed he reached down and started rubbing his thighs and his balls while I stroked his dick. I tried to deep throat it but I didn't even get halfway down the way before I gagged. I like raised myself up higher so I can get a better angle and try to get it down my throat, which surprisingly worked a big and I had like 70% of his dick down. I think if I laid down flat I can maybe get the whole thing down my throat.

He finally grabbed the hair on the back of my head and shot cum into the back of my throat. I felt like coughing but started swallowing, which helped it. I noticed how it was a warm feeling and sort of slid down my throat. I didn't taste anything at first until I pulled out his dick a bit and licked the tip. It was a sweet taste but not much flavor, but a egg white texture to it, which I didn't mind. I ended it with my lips on his tip and I sucked it really hard and got maybe a drop of extra cum from it. I made sure to clean up and swallowed it all.

We got back to work and pretended nothing happened, and I still had a bit of cum taste in my mouth which was so hot.