So this a story, not a confession but is 100% TRUE and it happened to me.

We made out like lovers, I confess this was my first gay experience.

A kiss is everything A beginning

At least it is to me.

My first kiss from a guy was when I was 17 and he was 20. I am now in my 50's so this is still so vivid and true today.

It was the most exciting moment in my life and it left it's mark on me for life. The moment he softly kissed my lips and we opened our mouths and our tongues mixed awkwardly together our eyes closed and I felt a little discusted as I was a str8 guy now thinking HOLLY CRAP and that first kiss turned to OMG WHAT IS HAPPENING and my heart melted my mind went blank, I lost track of time and we collapsed in each others arms lips locked in what seemed the longest most intimate most beautiful kiss of my life. Words can not express the feelings. We kissed for an hour or more. He was a VERY GOOD LOOKING guy, tan thin build and handsome as it gets. I was (and still am) lol a handsome guy too.

I was a str8 guy and he was openly gay to me and our paths crossed and we meet up one warm summer night. THAT NIGHT CHANGED MY LIFE FOREVER. without a doubt and from that moment on I have lived a life of struggle, romance, growth and learning as a human being ,torment as a confused man, conviction of changing options and beliefs of str8 life vs gay as a man , acceptance of myself, love, learning and understanding myself, and many other emotions that still are challenging and a learnings in my life and the single truth of it all is I would not change a single moment in time from my first kiss with a man.

It was the defining moment in my life, I then knew INSTANTLY there is something more that I needed to know about being with a guy.

Thirty Five years have past, and I remember that day like it was yesterday, every second, everything. I remember feeling dirty and ashamed on my drive home from his house and I also remember feeling blush, elated, warm and somehow loved. It was a CRAZY feeling.

I have only found a few guys so far to compare to that FIRST kiss in 30 years, and they can take my breath away LITERALLY with one deep kiss and it sparks all of these thoughts and emotions, feelings and desires as when I was a young man and my memory of the past and outlook to the future inside me.

If you feel the same way hit comment and explain your story. If were close (NJ and NYC) Dm me. let's try to kiss and make out and male bond and see if that is A Kiss of a lifetime! I will know immediately and so will you. CHEMISTRY AND MALE BONDING HAPPENS IN A SECOND IF ITS RIGHT!

Im all man here living breathing and demonstrating who I am even though I am closeted I ALWAYS find the time to seek these feelings with another guy again. I wouldn't change a thing .

Masc and/or femme is great.

But the kiss is everything!