We continued what we were doing but we did not label what we were. My friend knew who Joe is but they never met him. I was embarrassed to tell them that he’s older. During the time I was seeing Joe I felt some what happy but not fully happy. I started to feeling guilty but every time I’m with him I felt safe and secure. So the guilt did not bother me. I was bad! His wife would call him sometimes while having sex and I’m between his legs giving him a blow job. At first he did not like it but after he just let me suck him off while he was on the phone. We would always inhale poppers and it was the high of our sex. We made videos(I wish I save them but deleted them) we even tried bringing someone in but we would both get jealous and decided we are not good with 3some.

Joe had to go to South Carolina for a week since his son was graduating 8th grade. Once again not seeing him for a week felt like a year. But it did feel like a year because he barely texted me. This time sometimes was off. When he came back we had dinner and drinks. We ubered back to his apartment and I remember him holding my hand throughout the ride. When we got back to his apartment we had sex and after having a hot steamy sex we cuddled as we were both in bed cuddle I could tell something was off. And that’s when he told me we have to stop whatever we are doing. I felt like my heart stop beating, I felt used and confused. I asked myself why would he say these things after we just had Ana amazing sex. How could he. My mind was racing but for some reason I answered “I agree” not sure why I said that but I guess it pride and I did not want him to think what he said will affect me. For the first time in awhile I decided not to stay the night and go home. Honestly I thought I was really In a movie. He offered to get me an Uber but I said no I got it. He tried calling and texting me to make sure I got home safe but I was just angry at him. But I know I shouldn’t.

The following morning he texted me. he ask if I can come over so we can talk and I did. When I got there I ask “what’s up” and he replied “the sky” chuckling I couldn’t help but smile because he’s corny but so charming at the same time. We are now seeing each other for about 8months by this time and I’ve gotten to know him in a deeper level and vise versa. He apologized for putting me in this situation and told me he really did care about me but we have to end what we are doing. He told me I’m young and I can find someone better. A young cock who will satisfy me even more.(he jinxed it cause Joe was my best sex and best cock) he said we can remain friends but without the benefits. And we did for a few days but he told me he was going back to South Carolina for good and he had sex for the last time. All I can think of before meeting him was the song “all I ask” by Adele. And that was the last time I hanged out with Joe. I did love him and he loved me but we both knew what we had was not going to last forever but I am grateful that I had those moments with him. pS. We still keeping touch here and there but as friends. It’s been 6 years since the last time I’ve him. Joe will always have a special place in my heart. I learned a lot from those moments and enjoyed it. But One thing for sure I regret was being with with a man who was unavailable.