So I’m 18 and have always thought I was straight, the last couple months I’ve been thinking maybe I’m into guys. I had a gf over the summer and one of the reasons that I broke up with her because I kept thinking about having sex with a dude.

About four months ago one of my guy friends kissed me. After that I started getting feelings for him, blah blah blah. But nothing happened with that as he’s straight. It wasn’t until then I realized I might have actual feelings for guys. Which is scary as hell.

So my girl bestfriend and I like each other. We’ve liked each other on and off for three years. Her and I are hanging out tonight alone and the last couple of times she’s been making moves. I want date her and be with her and I had the idea of asking her out tonight and kissing her at the new year. But I have these wants to try something with a guy and test things out.

My problem is that I really want to try stuff with a guy but also want to date and be with my bestfriend. Should I wait to ask her out and do something with a guy first and see how I like it or kiss her tonight and date her and forget everything I feel about guys?