Yea so today I was stressing out because some of you told me to Talk to Jonathan (M17). And I was like “ew, speaking”. And so I (M16) wrote him a letter instead basically saying that I admired him and I would like to be his friend and blah blah blah. Well I was walking to lunch like literally 10 mins ago and he (like kid you not) walked by me and we made eye contact and he grinned. So I turned around and walked towards him in this big crowd and I tap him on the shoulder and he turns around…. And frowns. And I take the letter from my pocket and tell him “this is for you”. And he takes one look at it the glances at me up and down and then says with discuss in his face “ yea…..No”. And scuffs and walks away. And I was like standing there in shock and I run to the library and I cry and read my letter and cry and now my phone is wet. And literally right now I’m sitting in a seat in some corner in the school library writing this and crying and listening to “When the Party’s Over” and “lovely”. I might cry some more later but now I have to get to class and hope nobody asks me if I’m ok or else I might have a breakdown and I don’t want that. Anyways yea this happened like 20 mins ago and I’m like overwhelmed rn. So….. yea. And you know what’s funny about all this, that he made me believe I actually stood a chance with him. And then he didn’t. Haha. Dptroll06 signing out. 🙃