I started late. I am almost 27. I only starting this whole gay dating recently after coming to a place where it's easy to be who I am. I started seeing someone. I thought he could be into me as I was into him. Due to my insecurities and being new to this, I wasn't able to sexually perform. I needed some time. But we still continued hanging out. He never discouraged me or belittled me. Unfortunately, I started falling in love. And one day, I couldn't resist and told him how I felt over text. At a point, he had made it clear how he wasn't ready for anything serious due to recent heartbreak with his ex. That had made things clear to me but I still wanted to let him know how I felt and I did. We met the next time and he kindly said he isn't into me. I was okay that time. I told him I still liked talking to him and I didn't want to cut everything off. He agreed. I was okay because he had already made it clear at one point. However, as time passed by, I have been feeling worse. I miss him. We agreed to keep away with all things romantic and we even don't meet up anymore. We only met once for dinner after that moment and it was special for me. I thought time would make it easier for me, but it's apparently not. I crave his presence. Is this even love? All I wanted was someone I could love and someone who would love me back. I had literally started planning a life with him. I am like that. I never explored the gay scene, and from the look of it, it looks so sad. Even in a country where you are free to be so. Every gay person I know is traumatized in some way. And those awful apps. I hate them. How should I try to get over him without cutting off contacts?