My boyfriend of like 6 years recently insisted that we opened up our relationship because he cant preform anymore. Hes like 56 im 30 idk if that matters. He pointed out that when i had my surgery i let him go out and play with other people, and didnt once get jealous or upset, and pretty much didn't change how i treat him in anyway. I've always found it taxing to be jealous, at the end of the day i don't particularly care if my partners screws other people, all it us is pleasure anyways. I understand people do get jealous for valid reasons but its just not something that matters to me.

I just never even picture myself sleeping with anyone else, i mean sure porn is nice, but I've never had the urge to do it with anyone other than him, its been 2 years since we were able to do it. Which has really surprised me a lot with how little it bothered me. I kinda am nervous about it, i don't know if i was to actually use the open part of the open relationship if he wouldnt get mad. Theres a small part of me that misses sex, but the thought of accidentally hurting his feelings by actually doing it really hurts my soul.

How should i go about this? Do yall have any tips or advice? If i do actually go through with it how often is too much? Should i just never act on it, or do i explore what this could lead to?