My (23m) and boyfriend (29m) have been together for about 2 years now. I love him so much and our relationship has had its up and downs, but we have managed to work through it and strengthen our connection. Recently I almost cheated on him, i dont know why i did it and didnt go through with it because it hit me all at once of the consequences. Mr and my bf met on grindr, we started off as a hookup, but both of us felt something and decided to start dating and here we are. We have a great sex life and i wouldnt change it for the world, but somehow its like i miss the rush of meeting someone for anonymous sex. I dont want to cheat because he is the sweetest person and i know he would never do that to me. We did have a conversation about wether or not he would ever do an open relationship and he said he would never want to share me. Granted i feel the same way to a certain extent, but now i feel stagnant. What do i do?

Ps sorry for the long post