I (M25) have been in a relationship with my partner (M25) for almost 5 years. 2 years ago, he brought up that he wanted to be cucked, and I had the freedom to have sex with whoever I wanted. I did not initiate this, but was intrigued and agreed to the idea.

I’m allowed to date or hookup with whoever. When we lived separately, it was easy to host and wasn’t an issue & I loved fucking other guys. The bull side makes sense and is hot to me, I just can’t grasp the cuckold side, which leads me to my issue:

We moved in together almost a year ago, and I’ve hit a wall since then. He’s okay with me bringing people over to hook up with, but it just doesn’t feel right to me, I guess? Like it doesn’t seem right that I can have someone over with him around. When he’s out with friends or out of town, it’s no issue, but I feel awkward bringing someone home when he’s here.

How do I get over this awkwardness? Does anyone have any experience or suggestions with this?

Open to both sides here, if you’re a cuckold, help me understand your headspace and why you’re okay with it and why I shouldn’t feel this way.