Ive always been interested in big dicks and hung guys but ive always been nervous to talk to guys and my partner about it. I wanted to try being dommed but never really had an opportunity until one time it happened suddenly, and i loved it.

I had a hookup on grinder when i was younger(24), he was a few houses down and we met at my place. We had talked for a bit before he came over and we had only discussed jerking off. After we had started he said that he wanted me to suck him a bit and he would be gentle cause he was pretty hung, after a few minutes though he started thrusting and holding my head in his hands.

At first i tried to slow him down but he kept up the pace and called me a "good boy" for being able to take him and let him take control. I dont entirely know why but i started to really enjoy it and let him continue to use my mouth. I was really turned on and felt really submissive and good when he called me a good boy.

I only saw him that one time but ive been wanting that to happen again for some time, but ive had a hard time admitting it.is there any advice, opinions or help i can get on this topic.