Long time coming confession. I'm 41 and married, been married for almost 20 years but I've always had a thing for guys. I grew up in the 90s where faggot was a very choice insult and always felt bad about being sexually attracted to guys. I did hookup with a guy in high school and another in college and really enjoyed sucking dick. But I wanted to know what it was like to be with a women.

It's not that women aren't attractive to me, breasts are great but after meeting my now wife and having sex with a woman, I slowly began to realize that I didn't like vaginas. Wife and I hit a rough spot financially and didn't have sex a lot or at all for a while and I started thinking about men a lot.

I hooked up with one dude and sucked him off and it was great but i wanted to get fucked. One day I was off work and wife was at work and I hooked up with an army guy whom I sucked, he fucked me, then blew a load all over me, it was so hot. I didn't do much after because I changed jobs and we moved.

I wound up buying some sex toys and playing with myself anally but never hooked up. My wife eventually found them and I confessed I was into dudes. We stayed together but the sex really dried up. I wound up hooking up with another guy and sucked him off, so good.

A few years ago my wife got her sex drive back somehow and we still have sex, because ya know it's sex but I think a lot about gay sex. I post pics of myself on here and love the responses I get. My work is quiet and I've actually sucked two dudes off while working. I want to get fucked again but it hasn't materialized(never have the time)

A big thought I always have is what if I wasn't playing house with a dead end job but rather was gay and living in someplace like Miami with a dead end job but having a lot more hard-core gay sex.