So this happened at like 2 am, my friend and I came over to visit a friend at his house, and we stayed the night. We we're sharing a bed together and were talking a lot, and suddenly he asked me if he can suck me off. I asked him if he was serious multiple times, I was crazy nervous, after he convinced me, I let him do it, but I started shaking like crazy and hyperventilating, it didn't feel that good he didn't know what he was doing, but after a while he said that my shaking was making him nervous because he said he didn't want me to be uncomfortable or to feel unwell. After I calmed down a bit, I offered to suck him in return, mind that I didn't cum, after a bit of sucking him he started moaning, but after like half an hour, we both just didn't feel anything from it, and just tried jerking each other off, but we weren't in the mood anymore. It was like, after the nervosity faded so did the arousal, then he said that maybe being gay wasn't for him, and we were talking again, and he said that he was just experimenting, and a since he knew I was gay, and had feelings for him that I'd be easier to convince to do it, and I just feel strange, like he used me to do something that is intimate to me, just to try it out and I guess I'm confused or a little hurt by it, but I just don't know what to feel.