Hi, my first time posting here but here’s my story:

I’m 19 and I sucked an older man off spontaneously from grindr. I’ve always thought I was straight and I still wouldn’t say i’m attracted to men but I get so turned on fantasizing about cocks or imagining myself being fucked like a slutty hot girl. I’m a pretty feminine looking guy to be honest, my friends have teased me for it and I get called gay all the time until I started thinking of me actually being a slutty femboy for an older guy. I know i’m definitely attracted to women, I have a girlfriend whom I love and turns me on easily, and I’m quite dominating with her. However I still get thoughts about submitting myself to a masculine daddy. For the past year I was exploring this fantasy in secret, through reddit and snapchat, sexting men and satisfying them online. whenever I got the chance I downloaded grindr and tried to meet up to suck a dick (my biggest fantasy) but I was always too shy and backed out every time.

One time when I was alone in a new city, I felt horny as I was out in the city, I quickly downloaded grindr and starting texting some guys nearby to see if I could build enough courage to suck their dick. I started talking to one man nearby who sent me pics of his dick and was down to let me come over. I told him I’ve never done this before and I was shy so we agreed that he’d put a blanket over his face while I tried sucking his dick.

I walked outside his apartment complex and told him I’m here; at this point I was so nervous and my heart was beating out of my chest, I was considering leaving and ghosting him but I had come too far to leave. He came downstairs and lead me to his place. In his profile it said he was in his 40s but he looked more like he was in his 50s-60s, he wasn’t very attractive to be honest, he looked a bit scary lol but his dick looked hot in the photos. I went into his bedroom and he took his pants off, laid on his bed and covered his face with a blanket. Now it was just me and his dick in the room, I was so nervous but I know this was the perfect time. His dick was soft to begin with, I put my big lips around it and started sucking, my saliva was drooling all over it and it tasted salty. I felt it grow in my mouth and it was pretty hot. I kept sucking it and licking his hard cock and stroking it up and down. I was gagging on it, spitting on it, deepthroating it and slapping it on my tongue and in a few short minutes he already needed to cum. I told him to cum in my mouth and I swallowed his big load. I felt a bit shameful about it right after, he told me not to think about it and I left to go see my girlfriend. Thing is I never stopped thinking about it, and wanting to do it again.

I’m back in my home city and I just ordered some lingerie, butt plugs and wigs, I’m gonna put some makeup on and suck some more guys off grindr when nobody’s home, excited to become a cum loving slut.