So I see a lot of stories on here but I'm actually here to make a confession lol maybe I'll tell a story another day

So, I'm starting to think that this is a little "unique" to me but I am in long terms 'hetero romantic bisexual'. Meaning I love women and want to be with them. I love all things feminine but I'm open to doing most things with most people. With that being said I've come to terms with the fact that I have a bot of a unique approach with my sexuality especially when it comes to men. I'd say about 95% of the time I am totally fine giving but I'm not interested in receiving. I just want them to be willing to give back. For example I would have no problem sucking or jerking a person off if we were hanging out but I don't feel a need to be sucked or perked off just want them to be willing to do that but don't really want to engage in it. I have some health issues which make some things like anal a bit difficult but when it comes down to it I'm totally fine sucking, jerking, licking, kissing, stripping, collars, bondage, restraints, blindfolds, paddle, groping, and all of that to the point I kind of fall into freeuse BUT I'm only really interested in it in terms of my partners pleasure. Not myself. And as someone who occasionally posts on reddit or goes on hookup sites the fact I'm open to giving is good but others also want to give and I struggle to want that. I don't know. People can send me or like generally do what they want to get off but I don't really necessarily get off by receiving. I like that they'd want to or if I wanted to I could request it. I guess I'm open to advice or whatever but that's the confession