I always thought of myself as versatile but 12 months ago an encounter with a Grindr contact set me firmly down another path. I went to his house - his post said rough fuck, but I was desperate to get off with another guy so I kinda put that to the back of my mind. He was freshly showered when I got there, he invited me in undressed and laid on the bed playing with his cock about 5”-6” hard but quite thick. He was an older guy in his 50’s about 5’6” tall slim and in good shape. He told me to get undressed, I got on the bed naked with him. I had asked if he had poppers when I made the “date” and he had them there on the night stand. Things started slow and easy, he played with my cock, I stroked his. He tried to kiss me, but I have never really been into that. He kissed down my body and took my cock into his mouth. When he came up he opened the poppers and had me huff from each nostril. As I felt the rush kick in I took his cock in my mouth. That’s when things took a turn. I looked up at him with his cock in my mouth. He gave me another popper hit then put both hands on the back of my head and pushed down hard so his cock went all the way to the back of my throat. He wouldn’t let me up even though I was gagging. Finally came up for air, he fed me poppers again then kissed me, sticking his tongue into my mouth - I just gave in. He asked me if I wanted him to fuck me - only with a condom I said. He put some cushions from the sofa on the floor told me to kneel and suck his cock again. Poppers came to my nose with his cock in my mouth and like the slut I was turning into I knew what would come next but didn’t care. I took a long hit in both nostrils looked up at him he was grinning, he held my head and began to rough fucking my face. I couldn’t/didn’t want to resist. He pushed me onto the bed, put on a condom and told me to get on my hands and knees. He lubed up my ass fingered it for a while handed me the poppers, saying you know what to do and after I had taken a hit shoved his cock hard into my hole. It hurt like fuck and I tried to push him away but he just laughed and pumped my ass. He made me turn over, pointed to the poppers lifted up my legs and forced his cock into my hole again. Pain and pleasure all at the same time. He pulled out, took off the condom and sat on my face telling me to tongue his ass as he jerked off his cock. Finally he was ready to cum, knelt beside me and pumped his jizz into my mouth. Then he just got up smiled and said good boy. Do you want to cum he said? Yes - I started to jerk my cock but it was totally soft from all the poppers. He offered to finger my ass while I jerked off but it didn’t help. He let me shower dress and I left exhausted and strangely satisfied. Ever since then any semblance of my top/dominant side has dissipated completely. I am a total slut bottom who likes to be dominated and used, although that does not really translate to BDSM, just rough use.