I’m masc presenting but partially fem of mind. It’s difficult to explain how that all works. These days I do prefer to just say non-binary masc presenting. I’m actually 50 and love to have oral as a side. I really enjoy giving far more than getting. I have a partner if more than 20years. I am not looking for anyone else on the emotional or romantic level. Our sex life has also cooled off a lot since we began this journey. I have asked and talked about some things with him and tbh have not established anything. However…, I am a little bit ashamed of my behavior, but I’ve learned that I love cum. I love sucking and tasting a dick. A bi or Hetero dick even more so. I have connected with a few local guys as nsa style friends. Having them to play with has kept me from feeling like my sex life is over! I’m not ready to surrender just yet! I have met some very awesome guys close to me and prefer to keep the encounters tight, but plentiful. To feel wanted, lusted over; feeling a man’s cock swelling in my hands and throbbing against my face is heaven. Smelling his scent and placing my face on his abs or between his thighs is heart racing. I get such a euphoric high with these “strangers” (distant FWBs) really. I am an addict for It, for sure. These needs, thoughts, and compulsions have helped me feel alive again. It is the thrill and excitement. And part of that is because I don’t want to share. I don’t want a three way with my partner because I am jealous as hell and don’t want to share. If I could live it with Henry Cavill or James Marsden, fine. I would absolutely give in to that! Just, it isn’t very realistic. So, I have a gay partnered discreet like me friend. A former model and he has the most amazing body. He is open to play and more exploration so, doing that slowly. Note: fucking Covid screwed up everything for two years!!!! As has WFH! He is almost godly to play with, and he always cums twice before he can leave, no matter what he says beforehand. I have another friend who is newer and is ‘bi’. He is extremely closeted from everyone he knows. He is more middle eastern and I love various ethnicity. I’m Caucasian, but don’t let that stop you! 😈 He is very happy with our first meetup. He had plans for dinner nearby the first time, he was quite late. He didn’t believe me when I professed my desires, skills and abilities. He came three times, and only left because he was late for the dinner meetup. He is very eager to return and do more and play more. I actually like him a lot, because he isn’t weird about it and just confident in what he enjoys. I find that I am bending more I to whatever he wants to do. Including giving up my ass which I have only ever done seldomly with anyone! I’m again scared and thrilled beyond measure. That new guy is actually a replacement for a married “bi” downlow guy from Brazil (I think that’s right). He’s married, but liked to just have a different experience now and then. His cock was just the best; long, uncut, veins, brown with darker scrotum. A dreamy cock that I was honestly in love with. He really hit my buttons too because he enjoyed licking and sucking my nipples, kissing my skin (never got to mouth..my own fault really.., and I wish we had). He has apparently moved on professionally from my area during Covid times too. He’s gone now, but I almost would not have had the glorious experiences if I had never looked. My third current is also new. I’m unsure if he is gay or not. I’m not sure if he is Mexican or maybe from Peru, but he is Latin and a sweet shorter than me guy. He’s also only been the once so far, but he has let me know that he is ready for more time. His first visit he pulled down his pants and was just there all soft and nestled. I really enjoyed his smooth body and bigger hard uncut dick. I was shocked how fast he came that first visit. He also came and went! I thought maybe I had done something or not been what he wanted, but he’s asking for more and more time. I believe he was just very nervous about meeting someone (aren’t we all?) Now, that he is familiar with where, who, what, what, when, he’s planning more encounters. More than I can actually accommodate, but I love his eagerness. I really want to have him totally naked this next time. I need to let my massage skills and oral proclivities examine him more all over. I think he probably has a nice butt and wonderful thighs. A little bit verbal dirty mouth, but very very kind. He has said that he wants to be able to fuck me too. I think that may be either a desire of his or he maybe thinks I want to pay for it???? I don’t know why it became such a topic when I always say that I’m oral submissive, don’t request any swap or mutual, it’s all expected to be one sided, but he ramped up regardless. And truth be known, I would love to have him to start penetrating me with condom protection, of course. I want to feel him inside me and how much he will maybe do and enjoy if I give over more. A new development for this coming weekend 😈 is that new guy 2 says he wants to watch me perform on someone else, and apparently have me naked while he enjoys himself. This new guy 3 is all for it and I was elated and also scared. I really want to be sucking both these gorgeous dicks at one time. Maybe even feeling a bukake situation of cumloads on my face. I have never done that before, but I have always wanted to. I just want to know the guys instead of total strangers all over me. I prefer to pick the dick I take (not everyone needs that, but I’m a bit femme and whiny about it). This could also lead Into the other play that makes me concerned. Do they think that I just want to be pounded by multiple dicks. Maybe just get fucked every way through Sunday? Im not a trained bottom..for size. Yes, I shave, manscape, douche, use anal brightener too, but I’m not ready to just be a hole! Yet, anyway. Regardless, I’m eager to begin the painful training so that maybe a three way with these two could be the desired de facto when I can play. Why all this? Well, it probably made me aroused to talk about it. It definitely made me feel like I was confessing the truth of how much I really do like it. Ultimately, it is to say that like you, I needed the unfamiliar men to really get me off. To have me so excited that I actually get weak in the knees. I don’t love these men, but I do like them a lot as people. I’d rather he get hard thinking about it and tackle me when he gets back home, rather than resent me because I am preventing him from doing things.

From, a CT cumslut that loves cock. 😈😉

P.s. I also love seeing your dick pics and your videos of splashes (especially, moaning and verbal).