when i had my first bf at 18, all of my online friends didn’t care and used to send me dick pics. At first i was loyal and didn’t send anything back but after awhile i couldn’t help it. I justified it as just getting off with friends. After i got with my second bf, thats when things became physical with cheating. There would be times i’d be horny and he couldn’t hang out and i’d hop on grindr looking for head. I remember getting to a guys house and getting started and thinking how guilty i was gonna feel after it was done but to my surprise i didn’t. i really enjoyed fucking this guys throat. So i kept doing it with other guys over and over. sometimes right before i’d fuck my bf id have someone suck me off. Once i even answered a phone call from my bf while i was getting head in the car and i didn’t stop the guy from making as much noise as possible. I’m not in a relationship rn by my choice, none of them ever found out, but anytime I get in a relationship i crave cheating