I just had an encounter set up on Grindr. He was hot, he was younger than me, and with just enough of an edge - calling me a slut, threatening to pound me until I scream, etc. It seemed perfect.

There was a bit of back and forth, but I finally got there to his building, to his apartment. He started making out with me. I was enjoying, but said we had to be quick because I had work to get back to. He said he wasn't interested in a quicky. As hot as things were, they got awkward that quickly. I eventually just left and ran back to the office.

I then deleted my grindr and will be deleting this account too - this was a reminder that not only am I not being fair to my wife or even myself, but also to the men I'd be having sex with. They deserve better than to be slotted in to the very few stolen moments, for a fuck and a run away.

I can't give more, so I'll stop taking. Maybe someday when my life is different I'll come back, but for now I'll leave this post for the next day and then it will be farewell.