I’ve had a hotwife/cuck kink for the longest time which eventually evolved into me being really turned on by big cocks, to the point where I find myself having gay fantasies.

But they are still very much based on the power dynamic of a bull/cuck or alpha/sub scenario. One of my recurring fantasies is finding a hung bull who makes me his cuck even though the wife isn’t really involved. He would make me bring her dirty panties to him and while he smells them and looks through my phone at her nudes, he’d have my worship his big cock.

I’ve downloaded grindr a few different times but have never gone through with it. I think its mainly because I haven’t found the right guy. For those of you who have worked through the nervousness and gone through with something like this, how did you feel afterwards? And did you go back? Why or why not. TIA