This is general and keeping it vague to protect privacy of someone I knew a very little. I say knew, because I had lost contact with them, and one thing led to another and found out they passed away about 8 years ago. They were under 40 years of age, and what I can see from comments I've found after they passed, it makes me feel sad that bit appeared they struggled mentally from what I can tell.

I remember knowing this person way back. I had a feeling at the time they might be closet. But my gaydar is horrid. I now since learning of their passing, wonder if this potential closeness might have been truly there.

I know it's a moot point, but it saddens me and angers me on a few levels. Why do some aspects of life, example male sports, make it so hard for a guy to be gay? Lockerrooms where guys have themselves in their Birthday suits, with guys typically talking about intimate moments with females. Now enter in a known gay guynif were the case, and those guys ranging depending on lifestage-teenage to early 20s etc- assume a gay guy wants all of them. As us gay guys know, it doesn't work like that

As one of those guys who fought trying to not be gay, I feel do sad that this guy may have battled this challenge. Speculative I know, but having been one of those closet guys and not out to self until my 30s, I get it. RIP to the guy I only knew a little. It just gives me chills sometimes, when people pass, and we realize there were some unknown struggles.