So I (21m) decided to give my boyfriend (20m) one final chance . Red Lobsters are closing down all around, and the closing down of his is likely inevitable, so he is applying to more jobs, and is even thinking of applying to my own as seasonal. I'm afraid to open up and let him love me, especially considering that some of his behavior was borderline abusive (guilt tripping, gaslighting, trying to slap the phone out of my hand and calling me out my name).

I told him I won't tolerate anymore disrespect, and he seems to be bringing about those behaviors in little ways but he is trying to change.His attitude seems to be getting better, but how do i trust him again after all that's happened? How do I know he's incorrigible and just playing the part to appease me? He's been making hints that he wants to be intimate with me again, but he hates coming out and saying it. I love him, however I don't want to kiss him right now, I feel as if I betray myself when I do. He noticed me moving his hand away, but did not say anything. I feel as if we should do couples counseling right away to avoid any future issues (once we get the funds).