I did it. It's over. A 7 month relationship, done. (See my last post for some exposition). He lived with me, there was no telling what was in store for the day. He could be sweet, entitled, hostile, you name it. I was not perfect, I would overreact, I could be quick to jump to conclusions, but I admitted those things.

He never admitted to devaluing me, laughing at me when I told him taking care of him and him treating me like shit was taking a toll on me, constantly asking for more, telling me how I don't act like his BF because he wasn't spoiled for a few weeks... Among other things (like getting stood up)

Even for our anniversary... He didn't act like he gave a shit. He bought a shit ton for himself, none for me. He changed the date of our outing without even asking me first (he decided to take a shift). Then when it finally came, he was using our date to make a tik tok, running off from me constantly, not paying me any mind. Brought it up to him, made excuses. He hardly ever admitted, and it was constant gaslighting. In our final talk, after he tried to get physical with me (attempting to slap the phone out of my hand, getting up in my face) he told me that I was too into my head, that " You're (myself) fucked up and I'm (him) not". In that minutia of a second I dipped after I said "be out in 30 days."

I thought things were getting better, I convinced myself I was the problem after being reeled back in to stay for the 2nd time through guilt, but my self respect shined through, and I just couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't kiss or sleep with a man who told me it was all in my head, even if he was supposedly changing...

I couldn't do it, but now I feel empty, no guilt, no sadness, just emptiness. I loved him so much... Someone please DM me... I need someone to talk to.