I’ve been living with my bf (now ex probably) for two years now. I love him so much, more than anything. He’s the kindest, most compassionate person I’ve ever met, and I want him in my life.

He broke the news to me today that he wanted to end things in about a week, but for the time being to “cherish what we have.” I’m broken. I’ve been crying all day, so much that I can’t eat or sleep. My body’s cramping, I can’t breathe, it feels like my world has been taken from me.

The reason he’s unhappy is because I have been relying on him. I do need to make my own life and have my own space, but I thought that we would still continue to date after I moved out, but he is…pretty certain.

I know this is Reddit and people will all say “suck it tf up, stop crying,” but this is so much. I feel like it’s not real. Just please some advice from one gay dude to another.

Edit: some of y’all are asking for more context, which is understandable, as I literally have not stopped crying and this post was kind of a cry for advice I guess. My bf and I started dating when I was about to graduate college. After graduating, I didn’t have anywhere to live, so I moved in with him. I do regret this, as it clearly has put a strain in our relationship. I had no money, no job, he basically gave me a roof to live under and food on the table.

We had decided about a month ago (after many times of talking about it) that I would move into a place of my own. I had a very hard time finding a job in the city, that’s a whole other story though that I don’t want to get into.

He told me yesterday that he thinks we are two different people. He still loves me and has feelings for me, but he feels that these feelings are not healthy. He isn’t happy with the relationship, he needs to focus on himself cause he deserves to be happy.

He wants to spend these last few days together before I move out. He wants to have “a few final good memories.” This is very confusing cause it’s like…he wants me now but doesn’t want me in the future? He says he can’t explain it and he doesn’t know what he’s feeling.

I told him that I agree that we should take time apart and find our own spaces, but I still would like to try again in the future because I still have very strong feelings for him, but he says that…he doesn’t want me to wait for him. He wants me to find someone that will make me happy, a person that will love me as much as he does. This is extremely depressing and I have not stopped crying over it lmao. I told him that I would wait for him because I have no desire to be with anyone else. He also says that he doesn’t want to promise anything because he doesn’t know if his feelings will change in the future or not, that’s why he doesn’t want me to wait for him. Up until yesterday, I thought we were doing okay. I thought things would get better as I move out since we have our own space, but….my life has been turned upside down.