I posted here for the first time about finding love in our community and you all were quite awesome with the replies!

But from my post to this moment a lot happened that left me speechless; a guy I dated for a year told me that God told him we are not a forever things and we should be friends, but the pain-loving me didn’t let it go because it didn’t make sense to me!

I faced him with all the things I found questionable about our relationship in which he finally broke down and told me the truth; he never actually liked me and he said so because I was “too sweet” and he didn’t want to hurt me, to his words “I felt I could kill you because you like me so much, I was powerless!”

The fact that “too sweet” translates to how much I was doing for him emotionally and financially; I can see that sometimes I give too much, he even mentioned that “I was infatuated about him since day 1” but I couldn’t wrap my head about him lying about everything for an entire year just because he didn’t communicate to me he was pressured!

But why there is a small part of me that still excuse him and feel like “maybe there was more”? Am I a fool for thinking that?