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Hi, I'm 18 years old, I'm from Mexico and I'm new to the world of BDSM. I'm looking for a Dom who can help me explore and grow little by little. Because of the distance, we interact mostly online. I don't have any toys at the moment, but I'm eager to learn and follow commands, even if I have to get creative to fulfill them at home. I ask for patience as I navigate this journey and I'm open to many things. However, I don't do crossdressing, scat, blood, or anything public.

I'm drawn to BDSM because I love the feeling of being at someone's mercy. Being tied up, blindfolded, and helpless turns me on and I also have a strong foot fetish. I'm open to humiliation and degradation. My boundaries are flexible and I'm curious to explore new things (actually, my boundaries are crossdressing, exhibitionism, scat, illegal stuff, blackmail). I ask for clear communication along the way to make sure I feel comfortable progressing.

As for photos and videos, I'm fine with sending them, but I'm shy about speaking English because I'm still learning. I live with family, so sometimes it can be difficult to send media. If it's urgent I can sneak into the bathroom to take a quick photo or video, but I ask for flexibility because it won't always be possible.

I want to mention that I have a physical disability: a dislocated hip and clubfoot on both feet. I can walk on my own and don't use a wheelchair, but I do have some limitations. My right leg is 4cm longer than my left, so when I'm in the same position for long periods of time, I need to alternate weight between my legs. I can't jump or do certain physically demanding tasks. I sometimes feel ashamed of my body because of this, and it would mean a lot if my Dom could help me appreciate myself and build my confidence as we explore BDSM.

I also want a Dom who can help me develop healthier habits, such as helping me with my exercise routines. A Dom who can guide me both mentally and physically would be ideal as I am trying to improve my health and gain strength.

As far as obedience goes, I am open to creative commands such as wearing the same underwear for a week without washing it, avoiding certain foods, or setting specific times to submit. I may even explore things like drinking my own urine if my Master commands me to as I enjoy the idea of being completely dominated.

The first one was too aggressive and brought me down, and the second disappeared without explanation. I promise to be loyal, obedient, and accept discipline if it will help me improve.

I am looking for a patient Dom who understands my unique situation and can guide me not only in BDSM but also in my personal growth and health. I am eager to learn and submit, but I need someone who can help me feel good about myself while also helping me become a better submissive.