Trying to tap into my inner bitch. I am a pathetic excuse of a human being. My place in society is at the feet of others. I don't deserve to stand tall. I must never look directly into the eyes of anyone.I don't deserve rights. I deserve to be owned, literally, and treated like an object to be used not a person to be respected. It is my destiny to be ordered to do things and not have my needs regarded, for my holes to be used over and over again for the pleasure of men like a cheap slut, and be filled with their cum. I probably shouldn't wear clothes. I am not a person, an individual. I am a thing.

That said, I beg you all and especially older men to give me tasks to remind me of my place in society. Give me things to do that will humiliate and embarrass me, that will make me question who I am and why I ever assumed I should walk among people, and make me a brain dead follower that no longer has any original thoughts but just blindly and shamelessly follows orders. Some suggestions are writing or drawing things on my body or looking in a mirror and admitting certain things to myself.

I have a small assortment of toys including a few buttplugs, two dildos (including a Pride one), a penis pump, anal beads and a sleeve. I also own some BDSM wear including a ball gag, collar and leash, and skimask, and a little bit of lingerie.

Also bisexual but been with a man, so I'm virgin tight.

I live alone so I'm free to be a total freak within these four walls and look forward to being one.

Limits are anything public, involving others unwillingly, extreme pain, anything permanent, scat, underage. I think that's it.

Please reduce me! I'm begging you!