I'm a 24 fit stereotypical "alpha" guy who has had multiple girlfriends and lives fucking women. I strictly am only sexually attracted to chicks.

But..... For the longest time I've secretly gotten off at the thought of being completely dominant and forced into a slave bitch boy or sissy slut for a man. I want to be tied up, abused, degraded, humiliated, tortured and forced into finally submitting into a gay cum slut bitch!

This is like my 5th time posting but everytime I cum I feel disgusted at myself and then delete everything. I can't keep fighting this urge anymore though because it's the only thing I cum thinking about now. Recently with my gf I can't even cum from sex unless I think about a guy pretty much raping me. Please help!!! 😭

(For women I love feet and will do literally anything to worship them)