My “straight” best friend got drunk, we got into an argument and he began to call me a fag in front of other friends who I have not told about my sexuality. I felt hurt and humiliated but we made up hours later anyway😑. We were at his house, after everyone left he wanted to go to bed and asked me to join him. This was nothing new because we always sleep in the same bed together but this time he proceeded to get naked and crawl under his sheets. By this time he was sober but just exhausted. He spoke clearly and continued to tell me to sleep next to him. I put on some pjs, grabbed my own blanket and slept next to him without a thought of what he was planning or thinking. How should I feel about this? I’m always made to look like this gay guy obsessed with his attractive straight best friend but no one ever sees the kind of things he does. Behind closed doors he hugs me, holds me, and gives me kisses on the cheek. It’s never anything sexual. But in front of other people he’s cold, distant, a ladies man, a macho man. He never answers my calls or texts but is always face timing me and we’re either on the phone for hours or he FaceTimes me to tell me to go over to his place. I know he was drunk and apologized but after he called me a fag in front of others I couldn’t get it out of my mind. I forgave him but I don’t feel like I can continue to remain as close to him as before. He’s also the type to get mad if I ignore him, enough to the point where he’s banging on my door with all the things I ever gave him packed away in a box ready to give them back as if we’re breaking up.