Hi guys. I have an interesting dilemma that I want some input on. I have been in a relationship with him for close to 9 months. We have had our ups and downs like any relationship does and we are now finding our ability to work through things. My dilemma that was presented yesterday was one of my biggest insecurities.

My boyfriend and I have had a rough time with the sexual part of our relationship, him traditionally being a bottom and myself being more of a top. However due to my size (and other outside factors) he wasn't really ever been able to take me. Now primarily this being due to him having a hemorrhoid.

Well this last week he went in for surgery and had it removed with the intention of our sex life being able to hopefully blossom. He has been in alot of pain and has not been very sexual as he was worried about what pain might be caused by the action of actually achieving orgasm. He has been off of work and more or less stuck on bed rest for the last few days.

So the situation being a mess as it is, yesterday I got off work and I went to the doctors office for a routine visit. Me being thoughtful, I stop at a restaurant to grab him and I something to snack on before dinner. I get home and walk into our bedroom to deliver the snack only...to discover him laying on the bed covered in his own cum.

I immediately freak out throwing the snack onto the floor and storming out of the house yelling and screaming. (Over reaction I know).

My dilemma is on how it makes me feel. While I dont disagree that one should be able to please himself... he knew that I was going to be coming home and he chose to do it anyways. We have discussed at length the feelings and some discoveries as to why it makes me mad.

Do I have the right to be mad with my partner for not sharing the moment with me...especially after I haven't been able to share a moment with him in just shy of a week? Am I being controlling? Or is this something deeper?

Please advise?