I have no idea what it is but I’m embracing it. Throughout my love life, I’ve noticed that I attract & fall in love with BI men. Mainly BI- sexual & heter- romantic. That also includes gay men that have married w/ a kinky cis-female, previously 💯 straight men going bi or gay after men or realizing they are trans mtf. Ironically, due to Know complications from these previous relationships, I’ve actively avoided all BI men, only to have my now current bf of over a year come out to me this Pride as Bi-sexual/ hetero-romantic. Ugh I feel like I’m the only one in my dating pool that understands bi-sexual doesn’t mean poly & I don’t understand why when I’m presenting as a monogamous single hetero cis female, do I keep getting the same type of men? Anyway I’m working it out with my Zaddie b/c he does check most of the boxes I’m looking for & I am content for the most part. My bf’s 10 years older than me, he was married to a cis woman but she hated sex so he’s had more gay hookups than cis-female hookups. They’ve been doing their own thing for a year or 2, then Zaddie met me & is locking it down quick lol. Trust me I’m just as surprised finding all this out (but then again not b/c of my dating pattern) but he kept his sexuality a secret from me & waited till I was WELL invested. He’s decided it’s not worth losing me to be poly so I’m giving it a shot with him but is he sincere?

The thing that perplexes me is that he recently brought to my attention that I have a “rare snapper pussy”. He’s been with his fair share of women in his 40 years but never has he experienced a pussy that can basically jack him off at the same time. I thought that was a normal thing & I’m a serial monogamist so question if this is something sustainable & real or should I expect to be discarded? He said ass was always ass to him, regardless of gender but he’s attracted to the feminine aspects. I can be quite androgynous myself so I can see the appeal I have to him being sustained. Personality wise, we’re just like yin & yang. I have no complaints other than he lied to me about his sexuality, after I came clean & told him I was bisexual w/ same sex exes but monogamous. He still waited months to tell me after knowing exactly everything about my attractions. No it’s not that I’m prejudiced against bi men. In my experience, every bi man I have ever dated, could never be satisfied with just me. Once that bi-cycle hits & the desire takes over, I’m put on the back burner but still expected to cater to his needs, even though I have no desire to share myself with anyone else than my partner. He’s doing everything he can think of to quiet any doubts like we have each other’s location on indefinitely. I haven’t had to exercise any “accountability?” actions to assure myself of anything b/c he FaceTimes me all the time. He does everything he can to keep me happy but it doesn’t make me happy knowing there are times, I won’t be able to fulfill all his desires & that’s what takes a toll on me. Is he “straight” or only acting like it b/c I’m a demisexual & if I don’t have love for him, my pussy won’t snap back when he makes love to me?