Ok so since middle school I’ve always knew I was gay…I remember thinking myself with a girl and it didn’t felt right to me but with a guy it did…there were rumors obviously but I would really say I’m not but usually I would make some gay remarks and I never realized until I got older I’m 19 btw.

To my friends they already know I’m gay and also some mutual friends know.To family/coworkers/society is different idk if I’m even out or even in the closet anymore.My family never asks me if I have a gf or anything neither do my coworkers at all.The only time family would ask me if I have one is when I haven’t seen them in AGES.

I actually came out to my sister back in 2020 and I’m not sure if she forgot about it or she knows and doesn’t wanna talk much.My family has some internalized homophobic energy so it’s just pretty scary and also I have some family members who’s friends are gay and I’m scared that since it’s family it’s gonna be different.

Coworkers and also society is just annoying cause idk who would act up more

I need help idk what to do should I just come out or just see what happens