After I came out at 22, I jumped from one man to another until I turned 25. In that span, I entered three relationships and, in-between, slept with more men than I can keep track of. I always felt like something was missing. I thought maybe I couldn't find the right guy, or I had to improve myself to be more attractive to other guys.

After the third relationship, I decided to take a break from dating, and even from hooking up. I haven't had sex in so long. I thought this whole break thing would be torture, but I was wrong!

Things are actually really... nice. I mean yes, I get horny at night and miss having someone to snuggle with, but my life is so much better. I wake up in the morning and the first thing I think about is me. I'm no longer concerned about what my partner is doing, if they ate, if their day is going well, if they're cheating on me, if they still love me, what our future plans are, etc etc.

I have so much time to myself and I'm actually getting shit done that I could have gotten done a few years ago. I'm about to enter a Bachelor's program, got promoted at work, started a personal project, started going to the gym routinely, went on some pretty fun ventures with friends that I've ignored during my relationships.. life is great! Just the thought of being in a relationship sounds exhausting to me. Even sex is unappealing.

If I get horny and lonely, I just jack off and get it over with, and I'm back to doing other things.

I mean I definitely would like a relationship, but I am just loving this time alone.

I guess the goal now is to feel this way even when I am in a relationship. But for now, I'm enjoying the break!

I read on AGB and other similar Reddits about gay men always feeling lonely and not having anyone ("gay incels?"), and I used to be the same way, but after uninstalling all the dating apps and focusing on myself for once, I was freed from all the stress of trying to date and have sex and be attractive.

Any other single gay men in the same boat?