So I've been trying for a while, talk to lots of guys and still can find the right guy to fuck. I was just talking to a great CD who like myself identifies as straight be we are both much more flexible. We had been flirting back and forth, sending picks and tell each other what we were going to do to each other. It felt so great and I was so excited. But I started to talk to him very seriously out what this hole experience means to me made he told me about a girl he is starting to see and I think he felt guilty 😫 It's so hard to find a guy they scare off so easy. I've been the guy scared off too so I get it but admit I was so ready for this. Oh well I guess it's back to the drawing board