Almost 4 months ago my(21M) now BF moved into my place. I offered it to him so he (20M) could escape his abusive family and I truly loved him (and still do). Well when that happened, he slowly revealed his darker side and treated me quite badly, acting very selfish, pompous and ungrateful ( he says he expected to get spoiled for a few weeks and that I "dont act like his boyfriend") speaking to me as if I owed him things as well as gas lighting me...

I tried to break up several times... But he would always beg me to not leave him as he didn't wanna go back to his family and Orlando was the place for him to start building his career to stardom. I always felt like he guilt tripped me into staying . I fell further into depression providing for us and being treated poorly, however I'm in therapy now and he's starting to act better bit by bit, though he denies ever treating me poorly. Luckily he has a job now.

In the midst of my depression I was very sexually stimulated one day and decided to just pull up nudes I had in my phone I forgot Abt from an ex online fwb. I cut contact with him when I made it exclusive with my BF, but a video of him twerking was still saved. I began masturbating to it, but felt remorse for even thinking about it, so I stopped and they are now deleted. This was months ago, but hearing about a similar scenario brought up the feeling in me again and now I feel pretty guilty for even looking at it. Is it even worth telling and am I overreacting?