It's might be sad but I don't think I know what real love is... Like I look at a guy and think he's beautiful and I begin to imagine our lives together and... Yes it creates a very repellent energy. I think it's some sort of pathology, being attracted to emotionally unavailable people.

But a man who showed that he loved me and wants to be there for me came into my life and this feels... Different. It's a lot slow burning and more subtle but I feel an actual emotional connection that makes me uncomfortable because I'm not used to it, and I feel guilty because I don't know if it's real or not (as the kind of love I mentioned is all I've ever known). Now i find it taking over my old way of thinking.