I've dealt with abuse and neglect from my parents. I dealt with plenty of assholes who said they cared but really didn't. I lost faith in people, but I still wanted love.

Long story short I developed I really bad mix of avoidant and anxious attachment.

But then I started to love my self, am developing the many talents I have... I decided to give my parents another chance. I love them so much... especially my Mom. She's making an effort to try I can tell.

I met a boy who's really showing me that there are good people in the world, and a man that can love me as I love him. I'm slowly taking his hand... I'm not all there yet... But I just told him I love him for the first time. I'm rebuilding relationships (especially the one with myself) and then gaining more and I admit I'm very scared of it all crumbling down. But I know that if I stay on ground zero I'll never gain anything if I listen to fear... Please wish me luck if it reading this.