Today was my first attempt at problem solving, and I wanted to share the questions and answers I received and how it felt. As I’ve read other posts on here I feel it’s so hard to properly explain the depth of experiences, but today was a breakthrough for me and I want to share my experience to attempt to explain the feelings at least for me of focus 10 and 12.

I have practiced meditation and self hypnosis for a couple years, but nothing in depth or formal. I’ve always found it great for relaxation and reflection but nothing like the gateway experience, which I’ve only been practicing for a few weeks. Today I found myself effortlessly slipping into focus 10.

I love the feeling of focus 10 as my physically body feels completely relaxed and asleep but my mind is alert. I feel light and tingly and somewhat separate from my body but not actually the sense of floating. My mind will relaxed and I see a lot of colors and images that feel random and relaxing. I’m not sure if these images have significance or not. There is also too much to typically recall in this state as the thoughts or images are fleeting.

From todays focus 10 state, I do recall a repeating image that started as a flash or light blue then spins and twists to where it looks like smoke or haze around it then I can see a deep purple flame almost with a slight magenta colored shimmer mixed into it. Today I also seen visions of a palm tree and coconuts rolling on a beach, some sort of water collection system that was all constructed of natural resources almost like a beach hut (Swiss family Robinson). At this point my body didn’t feel real or connected to me. I was just enjoying this random scene in my mind. It flowed back to more of the color and light show after the beach, to what looked like swirls of paints in pink black gray and white but then they changed to flower petals and swirled and twisted.

Then I went to focus 12 and Robert tells you to basically think of a problem or something you want to know and then cast it into your awareness and wait for an answer. I didn’t expect this at all, but the 3 problems I focused on and cast into my awareness, I tried to be open and ask for help to seek the right knowledge. This was very cool because I felt like my mind decided the problems for me outside on my consciousness. And during each time that I officially cast what I I needed to know I just allowed my mind to “trust the process” I had many visuals that almost painted a picture of me participating in what the answers were. its hard to explain but once I received the answer it was just clear that was it and I needing need to worry or question it because it simply is. Below is what I cast out and what I received.

I want to understand myself deeper than the surface and the reality of my existence.

• I am a single drop of water that is separate but whole concurrently as I am part of the river flowing

What is the next thing I need to do in my life to improve the current state.

• Focus on physical health to relieve what shackles me. Journey with partner to increase our bond leading to peace both physically and emotionally.

How do I best help and foster growth in my daughter.

• Teach masking for social refinement and assimilation. Nurture and feed like sour dough starter. Ever evolving flowing fountain recycling water.

• note these are personal things to me and it’s so hard to explain the clarity and overall experience.