So a big motivatior for me to start recovery (started late January, my body entered recovery/EH mode in early March) was because I had such little energy and couldn't go anywhere or do anything. I couldn't even go to local events I liked doing in the past, and I've never really traveled at any point in my life due to orthorexia. After some of the worst symptoms have kinda calmed down in the past couple of weeks, on paper I could do something nearby. There's a con I used to LOVE going to pre-pandemic, and obviously I couldn't go during the pandemic period, but I haven't been in 5 years because even when it was safe again, my body had no energy to do it. Part of me really misses it, but on the other hand, I think my body after recovery looks terrible and it's caused me a lot of distress. I've been avoiding going out in crowded public spaces completely since. As an autistic fellow with very little social interaction, this would probably be a good place to make friends and have social interaction after the very isolating process of recovery, but I'm also terrified I'll be rejected and judged by others for how I look now. Has anyone ran into this problem during recovery? What would you advise?