I go through this every so many months.....for months I'm so miserable in my Pre everything body that transitioning is the only thing I can think of. I literally daydream 24/7 about finally being me....

Then, just like that... a switch flips. I still would like to transition, but it's not all consuming thoughts and feelings. I can focus on other things and I'm not necessarily miserable in this body anymore.

It makes it hard to decide whether now is the right time. I'm in my mid 30s, my kids are growing up I'm a difficult time. I don't want to add to my stress or theirs by transitioning in a small rural area. When I'm focused solely on transitioning and being me, it's frustrating because that's literally ALL I can think about. But when it stops, it's frustrating because it's like...ok...where did it go...did I make that all up?? It's so odd.