*I don't really know how to piece all my thoughts, apologies in advance*

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I'm approaching 30. The older I get, the more lonely I feel.

Right after pandemic hit I cut off my whole family, ended my three year relationship, and moved to a new city where I knew no one. I was suddenly completely alone and struggled a lot at first.

I do have a couple of friends but they all live far away from me and I'd have to go out of my way/travel to see them. I do have a gf!....but she lives in a different country lollll....so again, we have to travel to see each other.

I feel so bummed out. Jaded, even. When I feel like this I don't like talking to anyone and I get emotionally numb.

I'm reaching out to anyone who can relate, share thoughts and feelings. Or maybe you get holiday blues for a different reason?