I'm so confused. For 6 years I've been going back and forth. I have these extreme obsessive bouts of "I'm a guy and I need to just take care of me and transition". Then as soon as I finally make up my mind that that's what's best for me the obsessive thoughts seem to calm down. I dont know of it's fear of the unknown once I make up my mind or what. But its like whiplash. Last night I went to bed 99.9% sure I was going to finally start taking the steps and then I woke up today and that blinding obsession in my head has quieted. Is this normal??? It's the main reason I haven't done anything for so long. I'm not sure if I truly am trans....or what...