Tagged support but advice is immensely welcomed. They/them pronouns please, not a trans guy but my medical transition is very similar.

As of March this year it'll have been 4 years on T. I started the month I turned 16. My voice cracked and I lost the top half of my vocal range and that is.. really it. It definitely sounds DIFFERENT now but only slightly lower because there are just some pitches I can't get to anymore. But hey - it takes time, right?

Except it's been 4 years. And my voice was what I wanted to change the most - my voice dysphoria is the worst dysphoria I get. And my current job involves nothing but talking on the phone. I mostly pass as male IRL (when I'm not presenting fem) but I have never ever passed over the phone. I hate my voice.

Is this normal? I know T affects everyone different and some men just have higher voices but I have compared my voice to old recordings and it just sounds like "female" puberty (I started with an already nasally kind of high pitched androgynousISH voice). I've had other changes like I grow some facial hair now, my body fat is entirely redistributed, my face absolutely looks different.

Note: For the majority of being on T I've been on either .25 mL every week or every other week. Basically I was "supposed" to be on once a week but I have super bad ADHD so it was not very consistent. I started getting consistent about it last year but noticed after about a month I actually didn't love how T that often made me feel so I went back to officially every other week (I asked my doctor ahead of time).

Could that be why? I don't see an endo, I just have a PCP who specializes in treating trans adolescents and because I'm nonbinary she really lets me feel out my own dosage as long as I'm healthy otherwise (which I am!). Should I bite the bullet and go for more T? My voice dysphoria is AWFUL - but looking too much like a man actually makes me really dysphoric too. But I don't know if part of my dysphoria in that regards is the disconnect in how I look vs how I sound.

And yes I know voice training is a thing. I'm not interested in "talking like" a guy - I have a very feminine cadence and such and I am fine with this. I like it, even. I really just care about my pitch. Can voice training just do this?

I'm lost y'all and the more I see online of people at 6 months with the voice I desperately want the worse I feel.