I apologize for formatting. On mobile. Just need to get this off my chest.

After a lot of researching and video-watching and some help from folks here, I finally gathered the courage to accept myself as trans! Specifically I went with the labels of nonbinary transmasc because I felt that suited me well. I'm AFAB, but feel far more comfortable being perceived as male.

After getting comfortable with that idea myself, I came out to some very close friends. My partner was already aware of everything so I didn't need to worry about them. Everyone was very accepting, as I expected them to be; but now I feel extreme guilt over all of this. I'm beyond excited for everything, but everyone else seems indifferent or uncomfortable when I discuss anything trans-related. I suppose I understand that this is a very personal change and perhaps they just don't care since it's not changing who I am as a whole (just how I want to be perceived). It's just been hard to he happy for myself when no one else seems to be happy for me either.

I struggle a lot with self esteem, and have a very hard time putting myself above anyone else. Coming out suddenly feels like I'm bothering people, and that's just been weighing heavy on me lately.

Has anyone had this experience? If so, how did you manage it?