Reuploading to put trigger warnings to avoid this getting taken down TW: mentions of sex and genitals So as a little bit of context I’ve (FTM 24) been in a relationship with a woman (MTF 25) for 7 months now. Everything is fine and dandy our sex life is great. She is post SRS so I often forget that she’s even trans at all. I however am not. I’m post top surgery very masculine guy which she likes. That just serves for context. Here’s the real tea where I need advice or maybe to get someone to get me out of my head. This last weekend I got on her phone gallery and started scrolling (she was right next to me so I wasn’t doing this to find malicious things on her phone) the reason why I was doing it was to bond over her screenshots she screenshots a lot of makeup and things she wants she’s a huge shopaholic which is cool but she kept trying to take the phone away from me and I’m sitting there scrolling until BAM! 💥 Porn star with dick out and everything so after that I have seen enough and gave her her phone back. She asked me if I was okay and I said no lol. I want to clarify that I am not upset because she watches porn, I do too. We have our own privacy but obviously I’m dysphoric about the fact that you know she likes dick and always will. I feel like I’m not enough and I know that she misses sucking dick. I don’t want bottom surgery because frankly I like getting penetrated as well. But man is my bottom dysphoria eating me alive right now to the point where it’s making me sick. She has comforted me saying that I am enough and that she doesn’t care for dick as much as I think she does. She says I am enough but I don’t know guys obviously I’m not going to break up with her but the dysphoria is going insane in my head right now. I’m constantly asking for reassurance and she’s probably going to get tired of me asking constantly. But she keeps being sweet about it. I don’t know what to do to make those thoughts go away. Help? If you need more details I’ll edit the post.